Author Archives: Gel

Dear Diary, Where do we begin? It’s been so long… I guess we can start with one of the whoppers…Jimmy was laid off. I’m over here on disability and he was laid off…it’s all fine but holy shit was roooough. We’re both in the market for new jobs so if you know anyone looking forContinue reading “Chapter 43”

Dear Diary, Well we did it! It’s Mother’s Day and I’m feeling all the feels. We have officially ended any and all possibilities for me to have a biological child of my own. I got a hysterectomy & salpingo-oophorectomy on the Tuesday before Mother’s Day. As I said previously it all happened so incredibly fast.Continue reading “Mother’s Day 2023”

Dear Diary, So I had my consult with gyn onc today and tomorrow we are doing a hysterectomy and taking my ovaries and fallopian tubes. We’re just gonna shut down the baby factory completely. This is all happening super quickly but after reviewing the path report and factoring in my history this is the rightContinue reading “Chapter 42”

Dear Diary. I’m writing from my childhood bedroom with my preadolescent Glamour Shot on the wall…total 80’s kid…big hair, frosty lips and denim. It’s so crazy that I haven’t slept in this room in almost 20 years…I live so close that I always just go home and this is now my little sister’s room. BeingContinue reading “Chapter 41”

Dear Diary, We are back on a roller coaster! I decided to take med leave mid March and as now my disability still hasn’t been approved by the state aka I literally have zero income…and to make it even more interesting Jimmy was laid off and today was his last day. THANK GOD he wasContinue reading “Chapter 40”

Dear Diary, It has been a WILD ride! The holidays with the family were so fun! Although I didn’t touch on it in my last post we had some milestones…Jeffy 35, mommy 60 and mama turned 90!!! We were able to celebrate Thanksgiving with most of the family but Christmas…WE WERE COMPLETE! After years ofContinue reading “Chapter 39”

Dear Diary, I wrote not too long ago I hate my job… yup I still do. The hardest part about this job is the relationship. I can schedule in my sleep, I can plan an offsite on my own in less than a week’s notice. I can execute my basic duties independently…but in order toContinue reading “Chapter 38”

Dear Diary, You know how sometimes one simple thing will trigger a world of emotions? The most recent thing for me was the Netflix adaptation of the book From Scratch starring Zoe Saldaña & Eugenio Maestrandrea….all I felt was emotion. Let me take a step back and explain. I went to Munich for work. MunichContinue reading “Chapter 37”

Dear Diary, It’s 3:51 am and I’m wide awake. I’ve always been a night owl who falls asleep between 11:30 – 1:30. I’ve always functioned on minimal sleep, I’ve even seen a sleep specialist who thinks that I’m a person who actually only needs 4-6 hours of QUALITY sleep to function daily…Usually I go toContinue reading “Chapter 36”

Dear Diary, One year ago I had a bilateral mastectomy with immediate reconstruction!!! One year ago I went into the OR with the highest of hopes and a whole lot of people praying and hoping for the best case scenario…clean margins, clean lymph nodes and no more cancer. It is safe to say that oneContinue reading “1 Year Down”