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Dear Diary, Tonight is the night before Thanksgiving and I’m sitting in the most beautiful suite overlooking the 18th hole of Pebble Beach golf course…Tonight I’m at The Lodge at Pebble Beach. Watching the sunset into the Pacific is gorgeous! I’m just thinking about how blessed I am. This year has been challenging to sayContinue reading “Chapter 29”

Dear Diary, I’m back in the islands for work and it’s my first time since officially being diagnosed with breast cancer. I packed the same swimsuit but haven’t had a chance to get in the ocean or pool. Work has kept me BUSY! I’ve been here since last Wednesday and leave tomorrow. I did haveContinue reading “Chapter 28”

Dear Diary, It’s been about 3 weeks since I last checked in with you. Work hasn’t slowed down and it’s about to get even crazier…I say it all the time…I love my job and am a workaholic…I fully admit those truths but damn it would be nice to be chillin and not working again. LastContinue reading “Chapter 27”

Dear Diary, Today I shared a photo on Instagram and thought it would only be right if I shared the same sentiments here. October 1st brings out all the companies trying to “pinkify” everything all for a cause. Before I had breast cancer I loved the novelty of it…my favorite color has always been pinkContinue reading “Chapter 26”

Dear Diary, I am TIRED! I went back to work last week and I came back into the craziest week in my company’s history. Long story short I’ve worked from 6 am until almost midnight every day since. I was hoping for an easy transition back but nope I was thrown into the deep endContinue reading “Chapter 25”

Dear Diary, It’s been about a week since I last updated you and since I’ve started Tamoxifen…So far I’m tolerating it well. We’ve been having a heat wave and it’s been in the high 90’s/low 100’s so my ac has been blasting regardless. So far I’m experiencing insomnia even more. Usually with my insomnia IContinue reading “Chapter 24”

Dear Diary, Today is Tuesday, September 1st. Today I start presumably the next 10 years of my life. I start a new medication called Tamoxifen. So many people have had different experience with this and I really hope that I don’t have a negative experience. I know that my estrogen levels will drop so lowContinue reading “Chapter 23”

Dear Diary, Am I really a heartless person? It’s currently 9:00 am and I just responded to a woman who is complaining on one of the cancer boards I’m apart of. She’s complaining that she wants to hurt an 82 year old former nurse for saying breast cancer is the best type to have…personally IContinue reading “Chapter 22”

Dear Diary, I went to the fertility doctor about an hour ago and did my count…it was below my self imposed target and I decided not to proceed. When I got there I even lowered my target and would do it for 7 or below…I had 5. When I arrived I told my doctor thatContinue reading “Chapter 21”

Dear Diary, It’s been about a week and I figured it was time to write….tomorrow I finally decide whether or not we are doing fertility treatments to harvest eggs and create embryos to freeze and implant later. I’ve been going back and forth on having kids for as long as I’ve been an adult. IContinue reading “Chapter 20”