Author Archives: Gel

Dear Diary, Today is freakin rough. I’ve been bombarded by lots of love and am constantly getting deliveries. I love everyone for thinking of me. Emotionally I feel great. Physically I’ve had one source of pain since Monday night and I can’t seem to make it to go away. I can’t tell what the sourceContinue reading “Chapter 16”

Dear Diary, Holy shit I did it!!! I had a double mastectomy today!!! Both boobies are gone and I am an official member of the of foob committee. Recovery is going well and Drs Peled spoke to James when I was in recovery. This morning started by waking up at LeMeridan, the room was beautifulContinue reading “Chapter 15”

Dear Diary, Today I woke up and had all this anxiety pent up in me. I have absolute confidence in my surgical team tomorrow but I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t feel some nerves. I let Kimchi out of his crate and gave him his morning pill wrapped in brie (yes I know he’sContinue reading “Chapter 14”

Dear Diary, T-minus 3 days…I have my out of office replies on and I’m still checking emails. I need to stop and I know but I can’t. It’s a sick sick compulsion. Last night my team took me out for dinner. Jimmy met my team for the first time. He finally understands why I loveContinue reading “Chapter 13”

Dear Diary, I’m exactly 1 week away…down to the minute. In 1 week I’m scheduled to be walking back to get my nerve block right now…I’m currently stressed the fuck out! I’m scrambling to get all my work done and I’m stressed the fuck out because I’m Winnie the Pooh, short and fat. Normally I’mContinue reading “Chapter 12”

Today my favorite little puppy turned 2!!! His daycare celebrated his birthday yesterday! They dressed him up and he shared a bag of his favorite treats with all his pals! We went to the Patel house to celebrate his birthday with his bestie Kona. Last year we got the key to our house on hisContinue reading “Happy Birthday Kimchi”

Dear Diary, I’ve made an effort to always remain positive in these posts but today I’m going the opposite way. I feel like as the countdown to surgery continues the more shit is giving me anxiety. Funny enough though it’s not the surgery or aftercare that I’m worried about. The things are keeping me awakeContinue reading “Chapter 11”

Dear Diary, Today was one of the most rewarding and most pure days I’ve had in a long time. My sister and I share a hair stylist and today was her turn in the chair. If you know my sister you know she has HAIR! I’m always amazed at how long, thick and beautiful itContinue reading “Chapter 10”

This weekend was packed! I feel like I definitely over exerted myself. I’ve been super tired lately and I think the brain fatigue is kicking in. But I don’t regret it all. I’m trying to pack in as much time with our friends before I’m back in my personal lockdown. I realized that in additionContinue reading “Chapter 9”

Dear Diary, It’s currently 1:30 in the morning and as I tired as I am I can’t sleep. I have 2 sleep patterns, I’m out by 10:30 pm or I’m awake until 3:30 am. On occasion I’ll fall asleep around midnight and I love those nights…Sleep has always been elusive. I had a migraine theContinue reading “Chapter 8”