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Dear Diary, Today I shared a photo on Instagram and thought it would only be right if I shared the same sentiments here. October 1st brings out all the companies trying to “pinkify” everything all for a cause. Before I had breast cancer I loved the novelty of it…my favorite color has always been pinkContinue reading “Chapter 26”

Dear Diary, I am TIRED! I went back to work last week and I came back into the craziest week in my company’s history. Long story short I’ve worked from 6 am until almost midnight every day since. I was hoping for an easy transition back but nope I was thrown into the deep endContinue reading “Chapter 25”

Dear Diary, It’s been about a week since I last updated you and since I’ve started Tamoxifen…So far I’m tolerating it well. We’ve been having a heat wave and it’s been in the high 90’s/low 100’s so my ac has been blasting regardless. So far I’m experiencing insomnia even more. Usually with my insomnia IContinue reading “Chapter 24”

Dear Diary, Today is Tuesday, September 1st. Today I start presumably the next 10 years of my life. I start a new medication called Tamoxifen. So many people have had different experience with this and I really hope that I don’t have a negative experience. I know that my estrogen levels will drop so lowContinue reading “Chapter 23”

Dear Diary, Am I really a heartless person? It’s currently 9:00 am and I just responded to a woman who is complaining on one of the cancer boards I’m apart of. She’s complaining that she wants to hurt an 82 year old former nurse for saying breast cancer is the best type to have…personally IContinue reading “Chapter 22”

Dear Diary, I went to the fertility doctor about an hour ago and did my count…it was below my self imposed target and I decided not to proceed. When I got there I even lowered my target and would do it for 7 or below…I had 5. When I arrived I told my doctor thatContinue reading “Chapter 21”

Dear Diary, It’s been about a week and I figured it was time to write….tomorrow I finally decide whether or not we are doing fertility treatments to harvest eggs and create embryos to freeze and implant later. I’ve been going back and forth on having kids for as long as I’ve been an adult. IContinue reading “Chapter 20”

Dear Diary, It has been a week and it’s only Wednesday! On Monday I FINALLY got my drains out. I could not be happier to have them out. I stopped getting caught on drawer and door handles and I could stop taking the antibiotics that gave me diarrhea and lastly no more having to stripContinue reading “Chapter 19”

Dear Diary, I’m 10 days post op and I feel better than I expected. I’ve always had a high tolerance for pain and healed well. After my tonsils my surgeon called me Wolverine because I never experienced the horrible healing that many patients have. This time is no different. I haven’t experienced real pain duringContinue reading “Chapter 18”

Dear Diary, My life has been made!!! Everyone has been asking me if they can get me anything. I said I wanted the hot Tongan Olympian. On Monday post surgery Jimmy shared a photo of me and tagged Pita Taufatofua. Pita reposted the photo and sent me a shout out wishing me a speedy recovery.Continue reading “Chapter 17”