Dear Diary,
It’s been a few months and things have been much of the same but very different. I don’t know if that makes sense but it does to me…
I’m still going through it mentally and emotionally. I think for me my anxiety & depression are hitting harder than usual. I stopped taking antidepressants because I didn’t like how they made me feel. I felt very withdrawn and apathetic. I think my baseline is naturally someone who’s an extroverted introvert. I can make small talk and turn on the charm when needed but I naturally prefer to be left alone. Now that that I’ve been off of them I’m still semi withdrawn and prefer to be left alone but I don’t feel like I don’t want to do anything. I liked that I was always at an even keel but I just didn’t give a shit about anything or anyone because I couldn’t. Now that I’m not on them I still don’t really give a shit but it’s because I actively feel feelings. I don’t know I’m just in a constant state of idk….G
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